My ethnicity can somewhat be described as a very mixed group of cultures. I am half French half Portuguese. My father's side of the family is the French side. They are a very conservative group of people and are mainly Christians and they had a certain way of how households were run. Typically, it would be the man of the house that has to provide and take care of the entire family and seen as the protector and the strong image of the house. This shows a great example of the way gender roles were and are assigned in my father's ethnicity. I guess because my grandparents were so heavily influenced through their ethnicity and the cultural and indigenous beliefs that their house holds carried that strict need to continue traditions and that would also make sense why my father rebelled against the beliefs his family had.

Then there is my mother. My mother is half Swiss and half Portuguese, though my grandfather that was Swiss left my mother and grandmother when my mother was very young, so she grew up in a traditional Portuguese household. They were catholic and also pretty conservative, but because of the event of my grandfather leaving the bounds of gender roles were completely changed and instead of a man being the provider and protector it became the woman.  This also shaped my mother's perspective on gender roles in a household.

When my father and mother got married there was much conflict because of the difference in believes and structures especially in a family and household, therefor it was hard for my mother to give her old perspective on gender roles and submit to my father's profound view on gender roles since he was raised way stricter and traditionally. This inevitably led to my and fathers divorce and because of the difference that there were growing up we were also not really raised religious o taught much about our ethnicity and traditions.

My networks of kinship in my life are pretty small but they have a huge influence on the morals that I have and the way I am towards other people as well as my perspective on life and on different situations.

The closets network would probably be my best friend Arthur, he is quite literally the first friend I ever made, we met when I was 8 and he was 9. He taught me how to fully be myself he shaped the fundamentals of who I am today. He is the one person I truly believe could never be able to judge me.

The second network that inevitably had a great impact in the amount of knowledge that I have today as well as the wittiness I have is my father. He is one stubborn old man who really doesn't like to be emotional or soft at all and even though that goes against my nature he has always been the wisest man in the room. My father always has a unique way of viewing things as well as coming up with easy but effective solutions to pretty much any problem. I guess it's because of him that I can survive on my own. He used to be a police officer and so was his father so one can only imagine the manners and way of life they were taught. My father always made sure that I never learned to never except things from people all the time because most of the time you get disappointed. He also taught me that things don't just come to you and work out perfectly you have to work hard to make things happen that's why I am here today being the first in my family to study. And finally, he taught me that the world is too flawed for us to judge each other and that respecting each other costs nothing.

Finally, as cringy as it might be my partner DC is also one of my close networks that ultimately to this day teaches me new things about myself. He is more like my best friend than my partner and the beautiful thing about that is that we are not afraid to tell each other what makes us happy and what makes us not so much. He teaches me patience and how to be able to co-exist with another person and keep my ego aside. He taught me effective communication and the amount of conflict that can be avoided by communicating, and honestly, he taught me what healthy love should be. I think without him I would not have been able to love as fully as I do today, I don't think I would know how. For me even if we had to separate paths later in life, I would never regret loving him and I would always carry the lessons he taught me with me every day.

These are merely the 3 closest networks I have but I have so many more people who love me and I am forever grateful.

I dream the clearest right before I wake up in the morning. Usually, it's a depiction of my unconscious manifestations that is reflected in my daily life. It's then, when I wake up that I first notice the sounds around my seeping in. The calming sound of the fan blowing a slight breeze onto my hot skin, the sound of the birds singing beautiful melodies and the people and cars from afar fading in.

The first nutrient I consume is Coffea (coffee)- I love the smell of the sweet-bitter aroma that punches my face the moment I hover my face over the steaming cup that is what gets me going in the mornings. I meditate, grounding myself before the chaos of the day. Then I take a shower and have some breakfast.

When I walk outside, I'm hit by the warmth of the morning sun and the sharpness thereof and it takes me a while to adjust to the new atmosphere. Then I'm off to campus. The scenery of the place is so beautiful with the beautiful buildings and their history laying in the cracks of the wall and in the essence of the pavement next to me. I attend all my classes some making me feel as if I'm actually learning something and others not so much.  After class I feel mentally exhausted from all of the information that I tried to obtain. So naturally I head home admiring the warm sunset and its golden rays painting the sky.

When I arrive home, I'm always warmly greeted by the refreshing company of my partner and best friend, and finally after talking for hours about our days and complaining about work but still doing it. I finally wind down and get comfortable in my soft single bed. My mind races when I lay at night only sitting with my thoughts and its then when I slowly descend into my dreams again.