Shaped by tswana and pedi

I grew up from place to place in and out in between two tribes that somewhat believes in different norma and have different rule, i believe that being expose to the difference in teaching as a hybrid tribe taught me to accept being different, that has give me the outmost wisdom to differentiate and be able to accepet different people. It also boosted my identity confusion as ateenage girl, that most swem to atruggle with. Tshwan people are the most angered and yet som calm, yes their peraonality contradicted a lot and Pedi people are the strict and law biding people espacially when it comes to honoring parents.

Community

When i was about 12 years old, my parents separated and that left me in a corner where both could not reach or help me, they were very depressed, my mom left and we bacame our communities responsibility, community taught me UBUNTU, something most are not born with but can learn among other people. Yes! Community contributed to who and what i am today.

Culture

i am a spiritual person that sees a lot of things about other people spiritually just by looking at the or k owing their name and surname, according to me culture align to spirituality and know the rule and the norms of obe culture helps bild a person to know their orin and egange with their generation. 

I never had larger circles since my childhood and fewer people had played a role and influence my space and behavior. I everything I did and engaged in I did it with my twin sister although we had different preference when it came to things we love, people we liked being around and overall our personalities were somewhat very different. This was the person I spent all my childhood with, the one person I ever felt connected to just before I could go out and actually experience that outdoors.
I am an A-social type of person and making connection can sometimes become my biggest challenge of all times, yet we live through networks and to be connected to each other we need to create relations that can sometimes helps us grow both emotionally and physically. There is a childhood friend I still have even today, helped me navigate my sense of belonging and connectedness to the outside world, that she made it seem to beautiful and amazing experience.
Coming to a diversified space such as the university has made me learn and interact in so many different relations with different people, regardless of race and gender. I learnt of creation of bond and the importance of having relations with other people, this significantly changed my perspective of otherness and I saw people’s relations as one big bonded families, that I was ecstatic to be part of. Every friends I make in campus plays a unique role and contribution to my network of connectness, brings about a realization of being a part of something good and big since I spent most of my childhood and teenage time in a closed box and by avoided being around people by every means, which however deprived me from being a part of a network of people that could have help me connect to the world.
I now have a friend whom I hang out with, study along with and have lunch with during our break time. She provides a sense of belongness and being a part of relations. I can confidently shine and belong now, without being afraid of rejection and criticism and I can now understand that we are one big family of different people, race structure, personality and being yet we are able to coexist and share companion with each other.
Kinship is a very important network of people that share a bond and connect with one another, I now cherish every present person I come across, every people I share a space with, every person I communicate with due to the different connections that can play a role in one’s growth, maturity and connectness to the world. These connections does not only involves people in your surrounding but a society at large. This include institutions’ like school, work etc. Kindship has provided me with the experience of being a part of something, a part of a community that share experiences pf life, love and pleasure among one another. I now believe in a society that also believes in me. 

It is hard to get used to waking up in the morning eveb thought it is inevitable, i normally wake up at 5am in the morning, everyday on the right track, you would wonder how? Although my body can sometime resist to wake, in my mind i am like "argh why did i choose a course that has so many morning class" either way i would wake up and kneel donw next to my bad and thank God a another day " even though it torture sometimes" after a quick prayer i do squads exercises because i really need to develop some heavy waight bumps at the back just after my spinal cord ( laugh out loud) to be in shape. I then run water to take a shower, just to be honest we black people from township are not really used to shower, it sometimes feels like we are standind in the rain, so funny huh? Well i shower while a pot of porridge steam on tge stove, then after my shower i dish up for myslef just before i wear my clothes, because i can sometimes be very clumsy, so with that it is avoided. Fast foward i normally have two morning classes a day so i love it due to the fact that my mind is very much active in the morning, so ironic how i never give answers ar ask questions in class, so yeah that's just about it, so much for an introvert. After my two classes i go to the library to catch up on work i am behind with, like quizes and small assessment including writibg notes and that might take up to 4 to 5 hours. I know some people never have lunch at school and i am one of them, the cost of living is too high in this country, so i will later go back to my lonley room , have evunch, yes because it would be late by then. Take 3 hours to watch movies, one of the pscycho movies i love is intrusion. After then i would run the water and stand in rain again for the second time in one day then check if i haven't left anything that beeds to be submit, if not, then i call it a day.

The concept of otherness and stigma just takes me back to to the year 2019, where i was entering my first year of study in the University of Pretoria, with regards to the "one side story" i have head about racism and stereotype that dominated with the space was very enormous "in my head space." this also contribute to the concept of otherness where i would feel inferior everytime i had to have a conversation with a white person, often thinking i was not equiped enough to be around them, because i held a story about them that they were smart, dominant and powerful, white in my head was not diversified. "The stigmatization around a place of white people's habitant can really degenerates one's worth in motionalizing potential, it limits your ability to strive" so i thought, and often felt stereotyped in such  a way i would skip lectures and also not make and avoid contact with white people due to otherness and stigma around it. I now come to learn that we all exist in a diversified habitant, although we might have different experience of life, but no skin colour have it best. Everyone experience otherness in every setting, and as primitive as i was, i now came to the realisation of the danger of the one sided story and the effects of stigma.